now i found out many other things abt u.. laugh... i feel fucking stupid n useless... yes i think i was so naive :) thanks for playing arnd wif this feeling... u were just making use of me.... im just a toy to satisfy ur hormonal needs.... it hurts to know all of that... but i guess its good for me, cuz it acts as a medicine to heal my heartbroken slowly :) n thanks for making me sounds like a prostitute indirectly..

if i nv learn stuffs that related to karma, i maybe will kill myself now... i hate myself for being used by u as a toy to satisfy ur hormonal needs, for letting u to play wif this heart.. while i nv even touch ur heart before... u loved that married bitch more n still can say to me thr's nth between u n her... fucking bastard n liar... i pity her son for having such a mother who has low moral.. n also pity her husband for marrying such a woman..

well, andy, i maybe love u that much but that love, this feeling will fade away soon..well  i know im childish n watever u think i am, but this is who i am. no one can ever change me except i willing to do so. i loved u this much, n i accepted u in every way u do... but i still have brains. im not gonna stay any longer in this loneliness that chained me for almost 2 years... i gotta go my own way n move on..

i tore all the letters that u sent me..
 there's no use for me to keep it anyway.. tomorrow im going to ecp, to throw the necklace that u gave me... the place where no one can even reach including me.. good bye... thanks for everything u gave me.. i appreciated it... if i could kill myself, i also want to do it.. :) bye...

i give up.... im freaking hurt now.... thanks for all the lies....