It's been a few days since tat day.. Sigh... This feeling is really sucks... I'm happy tat u changed ur fb pw.. It helps me to forget u faster.. :) be optimist, ferra.. I know i love him tat much, but its time to move on.. If can, i want to be wif anyone eventhough i dun have any feelings towards them... Having a feeling towards someone is terrible.. Happy at the beginning only... Why i always date n love bastards? Am i fated to have these things? Most probably yes.. Haha...

Don't ever step into my life again... You are not welcome at all... I want to have someone who fully love me with all his heart, unlike you... Once i'm ready to open this heart to that person, i'll love him wholeheartedly... More than the way i loved you...

Feel so shity agn... Fuck my life! Why cant u get out of my heart n mind?! Isn't that enough for u to hurt me??? I fucking sick of all the bullshits u gave!!! Back n forth to me as if im just a house. Talk to me only when u're moody or bored or need someone to pei u... Fuck myself too for being a foolish who is ur willing victim... I hate u..... I really hate u.... Y u make me love u n u hurt me?? I hate it... Cuz of u... Its hard for me to open the door for others.... Its hard..... Im nt the type of girl tat can forget n love guy easily... I have no one to talk abt this..... No one will listen or understand these feelings... It sucks.... I need someone to help me... Someone tat able to calm these mixed feeling inside.... Im just like a volcano tat going to erupt all inside out....